Cracked Mirror

These days you won't be just accepting
You keep picking at my clothes and how I behave
You find my flaws and point them out
You comment, comment, comment

These days I won't keep quiet
I argue and be mad at you
I'm too sensitive, you say
But I don't care, no, I don't

We've been too long together
And time says, "Well, you'd better be off on your way,"
"Separated as it was before," it says
'Cause if we stay, then there's no way
No way we could fix a cracked mirror

Those days we were laughing together
Finding everything funny
Talking about everything weird
We think we're the best

Those days we were on the road together
Tackle down problems
Standing on one side all along
Live like there's no tomorrow

But, we've been too long together
And time says, "Well, you'd better be off on your way,"
"Separated as it was before," it says
'Cause if we stay, then there's no way
No way we could fix a cracked mirror

So, so long
Good bye
Good bye for good,
So when we cross road next time,
We're there for good.

Last Week

I'm having hard time. Not a VERY hard time, no... but still, a hard time.
Well, to begin with, there are these problems with the freshmen and one of my friends. He seems really obsessed with the taking-care-of-the-freshmen thingies, which to me and for worse, seems that he has forgotten his friends. This problem grew more complicated as the friends were divided into two: the pro and con. Sad, but true. I don't know why it disturbs me so much... maybe a part of me wanted him to stay with us and appreciate us a bit, and other part of me is maybe jealous of the freshmen. They are the center of the attention this year, not a surprise since this is their year.

And there's this man who keeps pestering me with his questions. I know he's trying to get my attention and all, but he's just doing it wrong. He keeps asking me what I was doing, what I will do... he keeps being nice and care for me. However, those are something I do not expect from someone I barely know. Correction: I know him enough to know he's not for me. Either he's too nice or he's too weird, whatever the reason might be, I just know I do not expect him to approach me. His questions are getting weirder and weirder, and the last questions he asked were about love. Code? Yes. Definitely.

Then I'm overwhelmed with these stuff I had to do: the academic tasks and responsibilities, the event I'm taking part in, the freshmen thingies... they all make me to stay up late (not that I've never stayed up late before, I just had never been this tired) and they literally exhaust me. It's thrilling to have things to do, to mingle and be active in college. Still... I didn't know I'd be this exhausted.

I'm still having fun, though. ;)
I had two guys introduced to me: one was from this summer event I took part in, and the other was a friend of my friend. Both of them doesn't like me like boys like girls, still it was interesting since I had never been introduced to anyone just to be introduced. LOL. Bad for me, I'm a very curious person. And easily provoked. Every time anyone teases me and one of the boys, my curiosity grew more and more. And I could end up developing a crush on one (or both) of them. It's okay since I'm free! (I do want to be committed to one guy, though. It's not like I'm a player).

Well, and the last is I miss God so much. The things mentioned overwhelm me. I couldn't go home every time I feel tired, so I often feel very lonely and hopeless. Those times are when I miss God so much I could cry myself to sleep.

Guess I should just talk to God, then :)

See you in my next post.