Tuesday, July 9, 2013

My 10 Ideal Men, Manga Version

Ini adalah posting iseng-iseng yang di waktu senggang saat magang. Saat membaca manga "Our Field of Dreams", gue jadi sadar bahwa (hampir) dua puluh satu tahiun hidup gue diwarnai oleh manga-manga yang gue baca. Sejak pertama kali kenal yang namanya manga, gue belum bisa (dan tidak berencana) melepaskan diri dari mereka :3

Gue terpesona oleh karakter-karakter yang ada dalam manga-manga tersebut, baik cowok maupun cewek. Lalu... terpikir oleh gue bahwa cinta pertama gue mungkin adalah karakter manga, hahaha! Jadi, dalam kesempatan kali ini, gue akan menulis tentang 10 cowok ideal gue versi manga :3

(Yah, dibilang ideal men sebenarnya juga nggak akurat begitu. Hanya saja, mereka-mereka ini yang gue suka banget banget!) =] Enjoy~

10. Xerxes Break

Karakter dari manga "Pandora Hearts" ini mungkin perannya seperti sidekick. Sedikit sadis dan agak sakit jiwa, karakter ini sulit dimengerti isi hatinya. Dia seringkali terlihat bijaksana, namun lebih sering lagi terlihat konyol. Gue suka dia karena dia bermuka dua. Ada sisi yang dia tampilkan, dan ada sisi lebih misterius yang membuatnya seperti sulit diraih. Namun, gue merasa latar belakangnya seharusnya tidak perlu diceritakan karena itu mengurangi sisi misteriusnya :(

9. Okazaki Tamon
Meskipun awalnya dia cowok brengsek, gue suka karena akhirnya dia benar-benar menyukai Ami <3 begitu dia sadar akan perasaannya, dia nggak setengah-setengah berjuang demi Ami! :")

8. Kazuya dari "Our Field of Dreams"
Contoh sempurna cowok yang fokus sama apa yang dia suka :") Kenapa dia ada di nomor delapan adalah karena gue masih belum dapet feel-nya, tapi kurang-lebih semangatnya itu yang gue suka!

7. Li Syaoran
Oke, CLAMP emang bikin versi gede-nya Syaoran di Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, tapi gue tetep lebih suka Syaoran yang di Cardcaptor Sakura :3 Lebih deg-degan fufufu

6. Sakamoto Teppei
Kurang-lebih dengan alasan yang sama (tapi lima kali lebih berasa) kayak alasan gue suka Kazuya, gue suka Teppei karena dia semangat banget di hal yang dia suka! Gue selalu merasa cowok yang menyeriusi hobinya itu keren. Yah, asal bermanfaat sih.


5. Arisaka Yukari
Sama kayak Teppei yang menyeriusi hobinya, Arisaka Yukari dari komik "V.B. Rose" karya Banri Hidaka ini juga menyeriusi hobinya. Tapi, Arisaka punya hobi membuat baju pengantin! Namun, itu bukan alasan gue suka Arisaka. :) Gue suka dia karena dia tegas dan tahu apa yang dia mau. Orangnya nggak plin-plan dan bingung-bingung. Keren lah pokoknya.

4. Kuro dari "Sparkling Gingachou"
Aduh gue selalu deg-degan kalo baca tentang cowok yang suka sama sahabatnya >.< dan lagi, Kuro ini sebenernya tipe yang keren bangeeet :D

3. Kudo Shinichi
Contoh lain dari percintaan antar-sahabat yang gue suka :") nyahaha~ tapi nilai plus plus dari Shinichi adalah karena dia pinter banget hahaha (klise). Terus menurut gue, dia ada di skala yang lebih besar dari Kuro :3

2. Eguchi Tappei
 I WORSHIP HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH MIIKO! Gemas banget caranya menunjukkan perasaannya sama Miiko. Gue sangat, sangat, sangat suka kalau Tappei diam-diam memperhatikan dan menjaga Miiko. Justru keisengan Tappei pada Miiko itu adalah bentuk rasa sayangnya :) Lalu, sedikit demi sedikit, meskipun samar, perasaan itu akhirnya tertunjukkan! Hahaha~ poin lain adalah karena percintaan mereka polos banget fufu

DAAAN nomor satunya adalaaaah

1. Saionji Kanata 
KANATA <3 Protagonis dari UFO Baby ini memang nggak ada duanya! Tipe cowok sempurna yang bisa masak, baik, menjaga dan memperhatikan Miyu dari jauh, menunjukkan rasa sayangnya dengan mengisengi Miyu, dan nggak plin-plan.... nyahahaha dialah gabungan dari cowok-cowok lain :3 Suka banget pokoknya sama Mika Kawamura yang sudah menciptakan Kanata :")

Nah, begitulah edisi lelaki ideal versi manga. If you do read my blog, please share yours! :)

...and the summer spell has broken.

God, I know how I'm good at handling broken heart. But why do You have to test me to this extent?

Ugh.

I know You must've had a good reason.

But You should know I can't do it without You. :"(

Monday, July 8, 2013

The Magyk of Summer

Do you think I was brave to finally say the words?
You're mistaken
It was the magic of summer talking
The summer fairy's dust
We were arguing jokingly and it came between us
It bewitched my tongue and and my mind

How did it go?
Was it "I love you"
or "I have feelings for you"?
Was everyone listening?
The summer fairy's dust covered my world
It let no one visible
No one but him

Do you think I was brave to finally say the words?
You're mistaken
It was the magic of summer talking
The blinding ray of the sun
He was teasing me and my mind was heated
I had no idea what bursted out of my lips

Prayed have I
For summer to work its magic
So the spell had me tied and trapped and twisted

Do you think I was brave to finally say the words?
You're mistaken
It was the magic of summer talking
The saltwater that I accidentally drank
He was playing with me and I was drunken
And the words that came out weren't at all salty

Sunday, July 7, 2013

A Lullaby for Him Who Had Given His All

Sleep, darling, sleep
Your eyes have bags underneath
Your hair's a mess
Remember that you have a voice to keep well

Sleep, darling, sleep
Dream a little dream of anything you love
Bring yourself to a wonderland
Where all of this is easier

Tomorrow I won't be there to find
But the sun will welcome you to a brand new day
Tomorrow I won't be there to see
The wind blows and hugs and holds you dear

If I could be her,
And I know that you wish I were her
I would greet you at mornings with a glass of milk
Because I know how you hate coffee

If I could be her,
And I know that you wish I were her,
I would smile at you in my best dresses
Because I know you deserve no less

But I'm not her,
And as much as I want to be,
I couldn't.

So sleep, darling, sleep
Bring yourself to a wonderland
Where I could really be her
And adore you as you please

Sleep, darling, sleep

[created around Feb-May 2013]

Him (9)

Hopelessly, blindly, wholeheartedly.

That's the way things have been.

That's the way I have been. Falling so hard and so fast and I can't stop myself. I can't stop falling.

It's funny sometimes, tiring at other times, but mostly it's thrilling. I always can't read people I like; it goes the same for you. If you're a book then the words are all vanished. Just like an empty sheet of paper, I perceive you. And my heart is flowing heavily, wanting to be poured all at once; to write on you.

We argue, we talk, we stand on the same ground, we laugh at the same thing, we work together... We are both sensitive to the point we raise our tone every time a small argument occur. We are both stubborn. We are both foolish perfectionists.

But I think it's possible for us, you know, to be together. If only you care enough, if I stop helplessly showing affections, if only we don't live in a whole different world, if only I'm not wearing hijab, if only I'm tanned enough, slim enough, and tough enough, and if only you don't smoke, if only you don't drink, if only you don't treat me so professionally...

It would've been possible for us. Probably even perfect.

But things aren't like that, and goes my dream away.

[050313]

What Happened When The Truth Comes to Light

There, I've said it.
I told you the one livens up all the butterflies in my stomach.
I told you he's the one.
You had guessed correctly as everyone would.
I had not been one to hide my feelings.

I had asked if there were a probability of you treasuring the same feeling
for the very same him
and "no," you claimed.
I had guessed that you do.


So, was it only in my mind
that you replied rather coldly after you figured out the truth?

If things go differently in the future,
it would only be a confirmation of my correct guess.

If so, then keep in mind
that it tortures me as much as it does you.
Keep in mind that my life has turned to gall.

But were I to feel this way, I'd drag you and I to hell.

Ombak

Ombak itu cantik
Tapi kemudian ia menggulungku dengan ganas
Lalu...
Biru
Biru sepekat-pekatnya biru
Biru yang juga cantik
Tapi ia berahasia dengan  membisu
Gila aku menunggunya memudar
Aku diam di antara biru