During the detour from pursuing my further study, I slowly lost my will to fight. I was not sure whether I should pursue it after all... I mean, I function just fine with my freelance work (except for days when I have no job order = no money). I actually enjoy translating movies and book, especially since I act as the boss/team leader of a small freelance translator group in a movie translation project. It is basically a combination of my favorite things: movies, translating, freelance work, good pay, and being in charge! However, I resigned from my office job partly because I wanted to pursue my Master's degree. I must not let it go to waste, mustn't I?
The truth is, I was on the verge of letting everything go and giving up on it. To my surprise, I kept going forward, as in I took the IELTS test... I contacted my lecturer who are studying Creative Writing abroad... I asked my goal-oriented, organized friend for an advice to stay on track... I scheduled my weeks for Googling and researching... and I did it all when I felt hopeless the most. I guess that just shows how truthfully, I do not want to let this go.
Fortunately, it turns out to be a good thing in the end. Now that I am already too involved in this, almost everything keeps me on track. For instance, I put off doing my essay for a scholarship because I find it too ambitious even for me, but apparently... to get my thesis advisor's recommendation letter, I still need to write the essay. Since I have already talked to her about it, I can't just retreat and forget the whole thing. Now I have to seriously work for it.
Hap hap hap!
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