Nonsense

What if I fall in love with you?
I would want to tell the world that it feels like I am wrapped in stars
I float and I float and stardusts glitter my hands and my feet
You would take me far from the harsh words I speak every so often
Then we would fly in a balloon of music because music is sweet
And this imaginary bliss is sweet

And if you fall in love with me
You would sing me songs they play on the radio on Saturday nights
You text me and call me and talk about the things we'd do on dates
I would listen to you; bring me up to speed with everything I missed
Then we would drive to a place where pipe dreams are lived
And towards where prayers and illusions head

But any announcement and I would jinx it
And one day I would wake up to a withered rose
of what used to be a cherished friendship and a possible romance

After a long time...

You age well,
darling, like wine
I've no choice
but to dwell,
darling, so fine
you are so fine
Alas!
this fondness
is for you to quell,
darling, be mine
be mine

be mine

be mine

To Be or To Not Be

To start or to not start
To go forward or to stay still

To know or to not know
To say or to be silent

To explain or to not explain
To share or to keep

To try or to not try
To get hurt or to avoid

To live or to not live

To be happy or to not be happy

To be or to not be,

for I am on the brink
of collapsing.

Only As Much

Deliver it by mail

Or deliver it by speech

Or deliver it by codes

Or maybe you'd prefer

To deliver it by look

These words had to be delivered

They had to fall on your lap

Bless you with a slap

That says

Permission is not granted

For you to get away

Like nothing ever happened

And rather than aesthetic

I choose my poison plain

Since I can only say as much

/æ/

Why do you stare?






What do you care?






Which of my reaction are you after?






Have you ever thought this is more than I can bear?






From my life, you will I spare






Sorry for me, don't you dare







At least I hate your hair






And it makes these all fair

The Whole of Two Haikus

#1
Grey winter sky hid
the sun and stars and glory
But now - it is spring!

#2
For the boy, the rain
fell; flowers bloomed; animals
sang; nature, too, smiled

Season

the change of season
turns hearts restless, expectant
though beauty awaits

August Sky

a clear august sky
day, it is bright and bluish
night, it is starry

A Monsoon Midnight

a monsoon midnight
reluctant and hesitant
and to us, distant

Dandellion

now the flower blooms
a dandellion, that is
floating after him

Spring

the spring comes and goes
in front of my watching eyes
it seems I am late

A Projected Image

I am a projected image

A best friend in need

An obsessed lover

A loud and vocal girl

Foul-mouthed maiden

Straight As student

Fragile damsel in distress

Independent lady

Liberal thinker

Years gone by and only now I see

What am I but a projected image?

When does the inside matter?

Mia

Mia...
Kutulis ini dengan bayangan tentangmu di pikiranku
Berkali-kali aku berpikir ulang, perlukah aku menuliskannya?
Tapi, iya, aku perlu.
Mia... 
Yang akan kau baca mungkin tidak akan menyenangkan untukmu
Aku tetap perlu menuliskan ini
Karena itu, Mia, bacalah, dan dengarlah dengan hatimu:

Mia... 
Dulu aku membencimu
Dengan kebencian yang bisa membuat bahkan setan tertunduk malu
Dulu aku cemburu
Dan kuanggap kamu sebagai pengganggu

Kamu dulu adalah serat-serat kuning di atas pagar tanaman
Kamu tidak seharusnya ada di sana, tapi kamu ada

Dengan sepenuh hatiku, Mia, aku tahu kamu tidak bermaksud
Tapi tetap aku dulu cemburu
Padamu yang malam itu menemaninya ke Kota Tua
yang dia percayakan cerita-ceritanya
yang selalu dia cari
yang karenamu dia datang tak peduli jarak dan waktu
Aku dulu cemburu
Padamu yang bisa terus berada di sisinya

Itu, Mia, adalah hal yang sangat sepele
Seperti udara yang setiap harinya kita hirup
Biasa, tapi nyata
Dan kenyataan itu dulu aku tidak suka

Mia...
Aku minta maaf
Karena berpikir sejahat itu tentangmu
Karena tidak seharusnya aku membenci matahari
Tidak seharusnya aku membenci hujan

Mia...
Sekarang lega sudah perasaanku
Terbebas sudah aku dari kebencian terhadapmu
Karena, Mia, sekarang terbebas sudah aku dari dia
Dia dan persahabatannya yang tidak kumengerti