Too Easy

Hi, dearest readers (though I know for now there's no one reading my blog).
It's okay. This is just a bit of sharing.

I was on my way circling Depok-Jakarta-Bekasi when it occurred to my mind that I've been thinking about this certain guy the whole day. Well, in fact, it's been like that for the past two or three days.

What concerned me was that this certain guy wasn't the same guy I secretly admired for the past semester.

Am I a player? No, certainly not. It's just. . .I think I am now the kind of girl that is easily flattered. I'm not blaming my foolish past relationship when I became a total love-fooled person, it's just that relationship really affected me so much; I even realize the way it changed me. In this past relationship, I was mentally bullied. He gave me hopes, he left me, he gave me hopes, he left me. Round and round and round and round. Moreover, I was a believer. Naive, in the truest meaning of naive. I liked my ex-boyfriend with all my heart, I even accepted being despised and mocked all the time. I've proven the proverb "Love is blind".

This foolish past relationship lasted for three years. Definitely not a short period. That's why when it was finally over, it affected me so much I can tell that it damaged me.Therefore, it's hard for me to open up again to love. And also. . .it turns me to an easily-flattered person. I flies when someone just gives a damn about my day. I flies when someone just listens to my story.

Too easy?

Yes, perhaps.

Is it wrong?

That's a question I haven't found the answer.

I'm just enjoying the feelings.